I am currently on day three and hesitant to make another video. This kind of sucks. I mean, what if I decide to keep my fat and unhealthy lifestyle, what then? Maybe then this can become a seriously dark documentary about living with obesity. In which case I will change the name of this blog to, Ro Does Obesity. I’d like to think that something has clicked inside me, but that wouldn’t be honest. Nothing has clicked, but the realization that I chose to be obese, has. I feel a little bit like there is a simplicity I never really wanted to believe. I can be healthy, if I want to be healthy. I can lose weight, if I want to lose weight. The beginning of that journey starts with me leaving Fellsorryforyourselfville, and marking a determined path to Geterdonesville.
I know this won’t be easy, nothing of great importance is. So, is this of great importance to me? Do I want to be active with my family? Am I ok with being uncomfortable in my own skin, even when wearing sweat pants? Am I ok with spanks being a part of my daily routine? The answer, simply stated, NO. I am not ok with these things and I am trying to pump myself up for real change. Not just, “Oh Rolanda lost 50 lbs! Have you seen her?!” And a year later, “Oh, have you seen Rolanda, yeah she gained back the weight:(” Cue sad trombone.
Ok, enough. Here is my online journal that is private for now. Some have been invited, mainly those whom I trust will not point and laugh at me in public. I am doing this for accountability purposes. If I fall off the wagon, that’s ok, just walk over to me, give me a warmhearted smile and a swift kick in arse. I’ll get back up.