Using Food for Comfort

Ok here is something else. While I haven’t binged, I have sought food for comfort. I’ve eaten all my old comforts, chips, sweets, fries, junk. And honestly, it’s tasted like ashes. Ashes of hurt that I’ve burned and am returning to, a nasty old friend that only wants to destroy me. That’s the thing about addiction of any kind, its enticing and romantic at first and before you know it your dead in the water without control. I realize now more than ever that food is meant to for me to master, it’s here to give me energy and keep me alive, and pleasure when used within the confines of hunger and fullness. But it will kill me and take my passion for life right out of my soul if I try to use it to make me whole. It will never fix anything for me, ever.

That’s all, peace out.

What’s Your Ultimate Goal?

Today is my first day off a 3 day detox/cleanse. Call what you will, but I lean toward calling it CRAP! It’s supposed to be a time for weaning off sugar, caffeine, and bad foods, but all I could do was think about sugar, caffeine, and junk. Oh well, it’s over and I can’t begin to describe the ecstasy found in a simple piece of peanut butter toast and coffee this morning. I’ve never tasted its like. Right now I have a burning desire for Red Robin, the whisky river bbq burger (add bacon) to be exact and don’t forget the steak fries with a side of ranch. Doesn’t that sound like the epitome of the American slacker diet? Yeah? Well, it’s my favorite, in the burger genre. In the mexican genre it would be queso and huevos con chorizo, unless you meant like chain mexican semi-healhty fare, then that would be Chipotle. As for Chinese it’s probably Hongs, and that includes the Mongolian grill, which is not including Thai, not Chinese, so I would say Tasty Thai and the massaman curry would be my favorite there. As for good ol’ American I tend to like Chili’s, seafood, McCormick’s and Shmicks. But my favorite burger…Red Robin.

pleas·ure  (plzhr) The Free Dictionary n.

1. The state or feeling of being pleased or gratified.
2. A source of enjoyment or delight: The graceful skaters were a pleasure to watch.
3. Amusement, diversion, or worldly enjoyment: “Pleasure . . . is a safer guide than either right or duty” (Samuel Butler).
4. Sensual gratification or indulgence.
5. One’s preference or wish: What is your pleasure?

 

I listened to Ravi Zacharias this morning and the particular message I listened to was called, “The problem of pleasure.” The title intrigued me. Why would someone even speak about a problem with pleasure? Do we as people have a problem and why would it be harmful? There is one statement that Ravi makes that really hits home in my heart, and here it is:

“Anything that refreshes you without distracting from, diminishing or destroying your ultimate goal is a legitimate pleasure.” 

I guess the next question would be, what’s my ultimate goal? In this life, what is our ultimate goal? I guess that depends on a lot of things, how you were raised, weather or not you have a religious teaching that you follow, what makes you tick? Twitter users can usually find out what their final goal is on their profile page, here’s mine:

Thirty-something, wifey, mama, nurse, who really just wants two things in life: a low rider minivan & an unshakable dedication to the lover of my soul…Jesus.

I’m not sure I have been completely dedicated to my final goal, and I think my two things are changing, while I would still love to own a low rider mini van, this bad boy would satisfy me quite well…

Ah hem, but I digress. Pleasure. “An unshakeable dedication to the lover of my soul…Jesus.”  I am wondering how many pleasures are put before that self-professed ultimate goal, I dare say, too many. While I think it is very important to find time for leisure and relaxation, I truly believe that I can find my God and momentum in every moment, it’s the looking for him that counts. I feel like life is getting shorter and shorter by the day. Days saunter by me unscathed, not batting an eye, it waits for me to seize it. I think if I were honest with myself I would start to examine my choice of pleasures, and if they are in fact, refreshing me without distracting, diminishing, or destroying my final goal in life, to cultivate a relationship with the Almighty God, to let him draw me unto Him, and to bask in His love forever. Sounds pretty deep, but I’m so glad that he loves to give blessings to His children…just hoping He reads this and pays particular attention to the aforementioned vehicle:)

So, before I make a beeline to Red Robin, I’ll mull it over a bit, I’ll decide if it’s something I need right now, and if it’s just a simple pleasure that I can leave at the doors when I go, or if my heart is seeking fulfillment that it shouldn’t from it. By the way, I’ve lost 17lb. on this journey so far. Only 12 to go to meet my first goal and see my dear friend get married. Good day my friends.

If you’re interested in listening to Ravi’s “The problem with pleasure,” for yourself, click here.